Well, this isn't going so well.

Alcohol always seems to fuck it up for me. I need to get used to not eating shit the day after. It's not hard it's just.... hard. Fuckin hell :/ I want this so bad, to be thin. But what's wrong with me? I just obviously am not trying enough. I used to have iron willpower. I'm gonna get it back.

I know I drink too much

This sucks. Kinda.

So far

Today I've had black coffee, a homemade fruit smoothie (as in, just fruit, nothing else) and a turkey wrap with mustard and a bit of honey mustard.

Fought my urge to just get fast food, since we kind of don't have a lot of food right now haha. Admittedly, I'm saving my last 9 bucks to drink tonight, since I get paid tomorrow but I have to work the day after that. I hate going to work hungover D:

Thoughts

About all of this. I mean, for one, I can be incredibly lazy. Well, not lazy parse', but content, ya know? I know how to work hard, and don't mind doing it, but for me it's just figuring out what exactly to do. I want to do so many things at once, or think I should be doing so many things at once that I just get stressed thinking about it and end up doing nothing. Or thinking I wont have enough time or something. I need to work on that. I also need to incorporate visual cues to better realize my weightloss, and the most important thing... keep up motivation. Hpoefully this will help.

This is going to be somewhat of a weight journey

I currently weigh around 155 lbs, and needless to say I fucking hate it. I need somewhere to write the things I think and want to keep up with about it, and Tumblr doesn't cut it. So this is it.

Day1(start): Already off to a shitty start, I guess.
2 bologna sandwiches
2 fried eggs
2 peices of toast
1 tbsp butter

Well, I think this will work nicely. I already hate myself for eating that shit.